Since agreeing to be one of the writers for the Cherished blog, I have been wracking my brain on what my first blog should be about. Then while running around town one day the song “A Life That is Good” came on and stuck with me. I put the song on repeat and listened to it over and over again. I came home and started singing the song again as I did housework around my apartment. As I wrote my New Years’ entry for my personal blog, I realized that I wanted this song to be the basis of my first entry, but how? Then one evening I was reading parts of the book, The Resolution for Women by Priscilla Shirer, and it came to me on how to make this flow together. So here we go and I hope you enjoy.
Sittin’ here tonight,
By the fire light,
it reminds me I already have more than I should.
As I sit and write this, I am immersed in the fading beauty of my living room being lit up by the Christmas lights and the lights of my tree and wishing I didn’t have to put it all away so soon. I am also reflecting on the past year and all that was 2013; the year of many ups and downs. Most notably, it was the year that I almost lost my mom due to blood clots. Even in the scariest moments of almost losing my mom, I got to witness firsthand the healing power of prayer. I was able to see just how amazing God is and His hand on every little detail. Many people would only focus on that, but there were other great moments, too. I got to witness my oldest niece graduate from high school; God opened new doors to new opportunities, a new friendship and a chance for me to teach Kindergarten as I’ve always desired.
After reflecting on the past year, I started looking forward to the New Year. As I began to come up with a list of resolutions, or hopes for the New Year, I realized I was kind of dissatisfied with this last year. Mostly because things I wanted to happen never materialized; I wanted to meet the man I’m going to marry, I wanted to cross at least five things off my list, and I didn’t drop two dress sizes. In the middle of my self-pity fest, one of the lines from the song hit me smack in the face “… I already have more than I should…” And the song is right; I already have more than I should. I have everything I need! I have everything God has planned for me at this point in my life. After several candid talks with my mom’s ER lung doctor this past year, my family is very aware that we should not have our mom here with us. It is only through the grace of God that she is still here today and completely healed. I have a God that loves me and forgives me even though I don’t even come close to deserving it. Sometimes we become so busy or too concerned with what we want or what we are missing that we forget to enjoy what is right in front of us.
I don’t need fame, no one to know my name,
at the end of the day,
Lord I pray, I have a life that’s good.
For me, one of my biggest fears is that I will be forgotten; that I didn’t make a big enough impact on the world that when I’m gone, no one will notice. Then one day I realized how selfish that was of me; it was like God shot an arrow through my pride balloon and deflated it. We aren’t here on this earth to serve ourselves, we are here to serve others; but most importantly serve God and do His works on earth. At the end of the day what does it matter if everyone knows our name? When the time comes, the only person I want to know my name is the Lord Almighty and I want Him to tell me that I had a life that was good.
Sometimes I’m hard on me,
When dreams don’t come easy,
I wanna look back and say,
I did all that I could,
Yeah at the end of the day, Lord I pray,
I have a life that’s good.
I don’t know about you but this is the line of the song that hit me like a ton of bricks. I am my own worst enemy; I am my toughest critic; when things don’t work out, or when my dreams don’t come easy or even on my timetable, I will tear myself down and allow the enemy to attack me. It’s during these times that I become very dissatisfied with my life. I have never been a person who lives in the present; I’m always reliving the past thinking I can change it. Sometimes, I try to skip to my future… you know the one with my husband and the 2.5 kids that I am supposed to have already.
Two arms around me, heaven to ground me,
and a family that always calls me home,
Four wheels to get there, enough love to share
and a sweet, sweet, sweet song
at the end of the day, Lord I pray
I have a life that’s good
I stated earlier that I had sat down listening to this song to set some resolutions for the New Year. Well the more I listened to this song and the more I reflected on it, the more I realized the chorus is all we should strive for every year. So this year I resolve to want God’s arms to surround me, to protect me, and heaven, faith and His Almighty power to ground me and humble me.
I pray that God fills me with enough love to share with anyone and everyone in need of it. I pray that I always have a song in my heart to sing. I pray that I have exactly what God wants for me. But most of all, I pray that I have a life that is good. Join me and let’s all resolve to live a life that is good, and be satisfied in the life that God has granted us.
True godliness with contentment is itself great wealth. So if we have enough food and clothing, let us be content. ~1 Timothy 6:6 & 8 (NLT)