Editor’s note: I have been sitting at my computer for three days typing and erasing, typing and erasing, and typing and erasing this month’s blog. My head and my heart have been so overwhelmed with events of the past month that I just want to crawl into bed, pull the sheets over my head, put on my headphones and turn on the music to hide from the world. I even tried writing a fluff piece for this month. But then a friend reminded me that my best entries come from a real place and real life experiences, and what I am going through might help someone else, so she told me to attack it head-on and not to hide from it.
Life stinks sometimes; things happen that you just can’t understand or comprehend. You lose a job; friends move away; you didn’t get the promotion you wanted; somebody else gets what you have been dreaming about; and unfortunately, people are taken from us unexpectedly. I have been through all of these scenarios and every time I have to remind myself that God’s plans are ultimately better than what we can understand. Maybe one day He will reveal His reason behind why some of these things happened. However this week, knowing His Master plan is better, has been the hardest thing to remember. Tuesday evening, I lost a very dear college friend when she succumbed to her injuries caused from a car accident the previous week. I don’t understand why God called this wonderful, sweet godly 31-year old woman home, leaving her 3-year old daughter without a mom.
Proverbs 3:5 tells us to “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” Sometimes we aren’t meant to understand why God does the things He does, but we are called to lean on Him, trust Him and let Him comfort us. And when other things happen that we don’t understand like losing a job, or not getting a promotion that we have been wanting; if we hold on and trust in the Lord, He often sends something that is far greater than anything we could have ever imagined.
So for those of you who are going through the storms of life right now, whether it is a little rain storm or a massive Category 5 hurricane, hang on! Don’t run and hide from the world; instead run to the Lord and let Him be “your refuge in times of trouble” (Psalms 9:9). It is okay to mourn for a loss or be upset that something didn’t go your way, but don’t stay there too long. You don’t want to miss out on a blessing that God wants to pour out on you.