Called to Walk Upon the Waters

Forgiveness-Jan

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown, where feet may fail…
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me

It has been many years since I’ve looked back on a year-end and said, “Boy, I wish I could relive that year again!” In fact, most of my years lately have been little more than just getting my little boat in life from one shore to the next without getting dumped in the waters too often. These last 5-6 years have been some of the most difficult I’ve ever had to travel. But through all the waves of change, the storms of loneliness and the thundering challenges, the Lord has brought me ever closer to Him, ever deeper into His presence and ever more dependent upon His strength in my weaknesses. And 2014 wasn’t any different; it was hard, it was painful, it altered what I thought was the norm, even the new norm. And just about the time I was finding my rowing rhythm and ready to make that push for the shore in the last half of the year, God altered everything by coming to me, walking upon the waters. (Matthew 14:27)

In service on a Sunday morning in early August, after a very emotionally difficult weekend, God upped the ante. He very pointedly called me out of my boat and out onto the waters. I can’t say that the boat was, nor ever had been, much of a comfort zone, but it was familiar and fairly stable and at least something to hold onto when the storms raged. And now God was asking me to let go of what little security and sanity I had and take a stroll upon the waves. Did I dare? Did I believe I could? Did I trust Him enough to try? (Matthew 14:28-29)

For me, forgiveness was the waves upon which the Lord called me to walk. It was something that I’d been dealing with these past 5-6 difficult years. And I thought I’d done a pretty good job of offering forgiveness to those that had hurt and betrayed me. I had made a concentrated effort to keep my heart soft and to guard against bitterness. But what God was asking of me was different. He didn’t want me to GIVE forgiveness; He wanted me to LIVE forgiveness.

So I trusted His calling, and stepped out of my boat and onto the waves, and yes, of course, they were raging at the time. I wish I could say I’ve remained dry and upright since that first step, buuuut not so much. When that sudden wave of anger washed over me, I didn’t exactly keep my balance. When an arctic blast of resentment slammed me in the face, I didn’t quite keep my head above the waters. When it felt like the enemy grabbed my foot and tried to drag me under with remembrances of those hurts and betrayals, I haven’t been able to kick him off every time. BUT, and it’s a big but, I’m still trying, still learning, still determined to walk where He’s called me. And every time I’ve tripped, stumbled, or sank, my God has been there to pull me back up, wring me out and stabilize me and then encourage me, “Try again, darling.” (Matthew 14:29-30)

So as I step into 2015 walking upon the waters, wherever He may call me, I encourage you to also seek His guidance. Ask Him, “Where would You have me walk, Lord?” Is it like me, upon the waves of forgiveness? Or maybe waves of joy or love or contentment. Wherever it is, I hope you’ll at least try a walk upon the waves with Him. As Pastor Stormy has said, “I’d rather be a wet-water-walker than a dry-boat-sitter.”

photo 2 Sherryle Cantu

 

4 responses to “Called to Walk Upon the Waters

  1. Beautifully descibed! This “sea of opportunities”we sail, often looking like a scene from “Deadliest Catch”!makes us whole, if we ride it out, adjust the sails, fight the big fish, and ultimately surrender to our “Captain”! Your journeyes Is your testimony, you friend, are truly Blossoming!!!!! Facing the Son shine and beaming!!!! Thanks so much for sharing! Love ya!

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