Everyone I know is waiting for something. And I wonder about that. Some of us are better at the waiting than others. Some of us are frustrated, angry, bitter and humorless. Some of us wait with hope, with renewed courage, with excitement and anticipation. Many of us waver between those two extremes. Some of us have been waiting a matter of days or weeks. Some of us – years. And no matter what, it’s not much fun.
I have often asked God – why do I always have to wait? What’s that about? Is it that age old excuse given to me by the spiritually mature, “God is building patience in you”?
What if He’s not? What if He’s seriously, diligently, earnestly trying to answer my prayer, and someone’s not doing their part?
God works through people, after all. And He’s completely committed to this grand thing He created called free will. It is the ultimate gift to humanity. In our humanness, He birthed this gift in us, so we could choose – choose right or wrong, to serve or to conquer, to submit or to rebel. Our choice to serve, to humble ourselves, to submit makes the act so very precious to our Creator. Submission is an act of the will. If the decision or action is forced upon us, well, that’s not submission, its slavery. And God is not in the slavery business.
So our heartfelt prayers of soul-wrenching longing drift up to Heaven. And He sees our longing, and He sees our best effort to walk in obedience to what He’s asked of us, and He touches the heart of someone, so they too can partake in the blessing of an answered prayer. But if that person says “no,” it puts us back to square one.
So, it isn’t that God isn’t responding to us, it’s that one of our fellow humans has selfishly chosen to ignore that tug on their heart. And God, who is far more patient than I, gives them opportunity to change their mind. Again. And again. And again. And when the moment passes, sometimes God searches for another willing soul to answer the call. And sometimes God determines that He will act, in His sovereignty, and bring about that thing we long for, without human entanglement. Because He is, after all, the God who does what He says He’ll do. And I trust in that, and keep asking Him for the desires of my heart.
Psalm 37:4-5, “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this.”
Hebrews 6:15, “And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.”